My name is Amy and what I’m going to share with you is a testimony of
what God did for me and what he can do for you. I will not give my
whole life story, but recent accounts. God has been doing one miracle
after another. In order to try to understand the magnitude of what God
has done in my life I will give you a little background of my life.
I married Bobby, my husband when I was 19 years old. Within the first
year of marriage we had our first child. He was happy and so was I, in
fact we were happier then than when we dated for 15 months. Along with
a new baby and being newly married came the ups and downs of marriage.
Bobby started feeling the pressures of being a husband and a father.
He started regretting being married. I felt rejected and became very
depressed. I became emotionally unstable and felt very worthless. I
felt worthless because he was not happy.
Over a period of five years we had two more children and continued to
separate. The depressions became more severe and I had become
suicidal. He wanted to commit me to a hospital, but I just wanted his
love and acceptance. How can a person with no love in his heart love
someone else? After our last child was born our marriage had pretty
much dissolved. I lived by myself with my children and he lived
elsewhere. During this time I knew of God and started turning to him
for my support. When I started feeling my strength come back, Bobby
was knocking on my door. Of course I wanted his love, so I would let
him come back without any changes in his life.
God continued working on me. I was invited to attend a Women’s Aglow
conference in Long Beach, California. Six months before I was to take
this trip I faced a brick wall in my life. Again everything was
against me. At one point it seemed as if my marriage was going to come
together, but it took a turn for the worse. Bobby wanted a divorce. He
blamed it on my depression and said he could not live with me any
more. Satan had him so blinded that he could not see his own faults.
He was an alcoholic and very abusive mentally and verbally. Again, I
tried suicide. I know that God was watching over me and sent someone
to talk me out of it. I thank God for that person.
The Monday before leaving to California for the Women’s Aglow
conference, I spoke with Bobby; we had previously made arrangements
for him to keep the children. Well, he backed out and told me to find
someone else. He asked me, “How can you fly off to California and
leave your children for so long?” (It was only for four days.) I knew
where all this was coming from. I told him, “Okay, I will make other
arrangements.” So it all worked out and I was on my way to California.
Before hanging up with him I told Bobby I loved him and he told me,
“Amy, it’s going to take a miracle for us to ever get back together.”
Well, God did do a miracle in the Women’s Aglow conference. A word of
prophecy came that God was going to turn the hearts of the fathers
their children and marriages were going to be restored, and I took
hold of that word and believed it. I knew God was doing it as it was
That night I called Bobby and he sounded as if he was in deep thought.
He said, “I don’t know why but I’ve been thinking about you and I’m
tired of living this way.” He said since the last time we had spoken
he had decided he was going to get on with his life and start the
divorce papers and have them ready for me when I returned. He had
become very depressed and started contemplating suicide. Today he felt
something stirring inside and he got down on his knees and told God,
“If you’re going to do something with me, do it fast!” I knew God had
already done as he said he would.
When I returned from California it was as if we had never had such a
turbulent life. Bobby started going to church with me and little by
little God started becoming more real to him. But Bobby had not let go
of everything. He kept bringing up the past and I started questioning
God’s plans. Three months later Bobby was filled with the Holy Spirit
and definitely became a man of God. His heart was filled with so much
love that a day does not go by that he does not tell me he loves me.
On top of everything his hunger for the things of God increases every
day. He’s witnessing, bringing friends and loved ones to the Lord. He
has put God first in his life and is becoming the man God intended him
to be. It brings me joy every time I see him praying by our bed. In
fact, just the other night I felt him praying over me. God is a God of
miracles! I’m living proof.
God Bless You. If you find yourself in a similar situation or know
someone who may be depressed, feeling hopeless, or having marriage
problems, there is hope! Hope in Jesus Christ. You can have the
eternal life and peace that Jesus has for you. If you have reached a
dead end in your life, I have the answer. Jesus said, “Come to me if
you are heavy laden and I will give you rest.” He will, believe it! If
you don’t know Jesus as your personal Savior, you can today, for today
is the day of salvation. Agree with God that you are a lost sinner.
Believe that Jesus Christ died for your sins and ask Him to be your
Savior. Confess the Lord the Jesus Christ before men. You are now a
child of God. Cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you. Make
a commitment to serve the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and
mind. He will see you through. Find a church that will pray with you
so you may grow and know of His love for you.