Stepping Out of Darkness
Have you ever been in a situation where you were so burdened down that
you just couldn’t see the light?
At the age of 47, I found myself faced with the greatest burden of my
entire life. My mother had just been diagnosed with brain cancer. Day
day I was surrounded by darkness knowing that the result would be. I
did not know then what I know now---
All my adult life my mother was my best friend. She lived with me
throughout my marriage and my divorce. She helped me raise my three
sons and she always contributed financially to make sure her
grandchildren had everything they needed.
After my sons were grown and gone away from home, I remarried and my
mother decided to retire from her job and move into a small apartment.
Since she had always lived with me, it seemed that she had too much
alone time. Every morning before I went to Work I would go by her
apartment and visit with her until it was time for me to go to work. I
learned to drink at this time because she would make a pot of coffee
During the spring of 1997, my mother starting feeling bad on a daily
basis. Our family doctor ran tests, did x-rays and scans and came up
with the conclusion that she had cancer and it had metastasized to the
brain. Darkness set in and I could no longer see the light. All I
could think about was cancer and death
Against her wishes, I moved my mother into my house and there she
stayed until the end. At this point I knew that I was going to go
crazy if and when my mother died. I thought I would never be able to
live without the friendship and companionship of my mother.
After a month of walking around with a dark cloud over my head, I
started reading my bible on a daily basis. Slowly the light began to
appear. I started asking God to give me strength. He not only gave me
strength, but He started showing me who He really was in my life. When
I read Isaiah 66:13, He told me that “as a mother comforts her child
so will I comfort you.” Then I began to read Psalm 23 and the light
My mother went home to be with the Lord on June 27, 1997 and I am
still here and enclosed in my right mind. God gave me the strength
that I asked for and He also gave me love, peace, joy and a brand new
revelation of who He is in my life.
Today, I am stronger and wiser. My faith in God and His word will last
forever and l have Stepped Out of Darkness into the marvelous light.